I’ve struggled over the past 6 months to actually know what to say here. Our city  has been devastated by a series of seismic events over the past year and our lives have been irreparably damaged. We’ve lost our home, our relaxed lifestyle and our ability to sleep at night. Some days I want to spill the pain and destruction and grief into these pages just to get it out of my system. Other days I want to make light of it and tell jokes to show that I’m not beaten yet. But most days I don’t want to talk about it. I know most of the country is over hearing about our earthquakes. I know I’m over living them. So onwards and upwards, that’s all I’m going to say about Sept 4 and Dec 26 and Feb 22 and June 13.

I still love  reading and writing and poetry. Thrifting and crafting and rescuing things that deserve to be loved. New potatoes and sun-warmed apricots and freshly-baked sourdough bread. Sunrises and wild seas and the smell of the Canterbury countryside in summer. If I was dropped blindfolded at night into the midst of it, I would still know exactly where I was.

Glendore, Winter 2003

4 responses to “About

  1. Hi there Pauline, I love the new blog! it looks so nice and fresh, and oh so colourful; well done 🙂

  2. Hi,
    Just popping in to say I hope things are going OK for you and your family.

  3. Anotheroneopens

    I didn’t notice this little ‘about’ posting before. I have always meant to write to you to say how much I enjoy your blog. I found you a while back searching for middle school textiles, I am now a retired Food and Textiles teacher but I am still as interested. I really admire the adventurous things you do with the children- I’m sure they get a lot out of your lessons. I am horrified to hear you lost your home in the earthquake, I hope your new home brings you much love and happiness. I visited NZ in Jan 2010 and loved it so it was very sad to see the damage done by the earthquake to places we had photographed and enjoyed. The way you write about your country is so enjoyable as well- we visited some of the places you mention and can’t wait to come back. Best wishes to you and your family for 2012.

  4. Linda

    This is so beautifully and honesty stated. We lost our home, too, so I know how you feel. On top of that it has been a cascade of disasters. I go back and forth just like you do between bravado and despair. I think it is like this through history with displacement. Until you’ve experienced it you don’t know how devastating it is. We went from a huge home in the forest in the country to a tiny, dirty dump in town. There doesn’t seem to be enough future for us to recover from this, so we’re in try to–cringe–make the best of it mode. It’s hard.

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